Remember…

June 26, 2009 — Leave a comment

This is one of the awful results of our prayerlessness and of our quick, careless waiting before God: a true knowledge of sin is all but lost…

Remember that you are a child of God.  Sometimes you commit sin: you allow it to fulfill its desires.  Are you forced to cry out with shame: “Woe unto me because of my sin”?  The power of sin is that it binds us so that we do not recognize its true character.  Even the Christian finds an excuse, thinking that he can never be perfect and that daily sin is a necessity.  He is so accustomed to the idea of sinning that he has lost the ability to grieve over it…

Remember what God thinks about sin: His holiness burns against it;  He sacrificed his son to conquer sin and deliver us from it… Remember the cross and what the love of Christ endured there; what unspeakable pain sin caused Him…

Wait in God’s presence until His holiness shines upon you and you are forced to cry out with Isaiah: “Woe unto me for I am undone!”

~ Various portions of  chapter 10 in Andrew Murray’s Living a Prayerful Life

That I would grieve and have so tender and passionate a heart…!

Lesson Learned?

June 24, 2009 — Leave a comment

God is always faithful, just not necessarily within the terms and parameters I set for him.

Why do I have such a hard time learning and holding onto that lesson?

Finishing Well.

June 22, 2009 — 1 Comment

Over the past six weeks a single phrase has been uttered in the Gomez house more than any other.  My wife and I have been persistent in reminding one another of the need to ‘finish well’ as our time at Carlisle Wesleyan was drawing to a close. I took extra care to make sure my study habits and the resulting times of preaching were as excellent and prayed-up as possible. We were purposed in granting care and counsel to those in need. We went out of our way to demonstrate love in as many tangible ways as possible. All of this because we knew of the temptation, when ‘the end’ is in sight, to simply “coast” until things wrap up.

Yesterday was my last official day (though there are still some lose administrative ends to be cared for) as Carlisle Wesleyan’s pastor. I think we finished well.

But that wasn’t the most significant ‘job well done’ I was a part of yesterday.

A good friend, Deemer, also finished well. He finished so well, in fact, I’m beyond-a-doubt certain he heard the sweetest words any of us will ever hear: yesterday at about 2:45 in the afternoon, he heard, “Well done. You have been my good and faithful servant. Well done!” I wish I could have been there when Deemer was finally free of the prison of his own body… when he was released from the claws of ALS (Lou Gehrig’s Disease) and able to move, to breathe, to touch, to speak, to walk on his own… when he finally saw the One he has followed so faithfully.

Deemer finished well—in his last days he, literally, took great pains to communicate his love and care for those around them and to share that his faith in Christ remained steadfast even in the dark, stormy place he found himself. He offered hospitality, shared his wisdom, and even injected humor… though each of those things took more energy and focus than I can begin to fathom. He brought glory to the name of Christ. He could have ‘coasted’ until the end came. He could have been self-focused, irritable, mournful, and angry… and no one would have thought otherwise; but he wasn’t any of those things. He finished well.

It makes my own feeble attempt at ‘finishing well’ seem inconsequential.

And I am reminded of why the death of his saints is a precious thing to God.

Wait for it…

June 19, 2009 — Leave a comment

“Good things come in small packages.”

“Fish and guests both stink after three days.”

“Subprime mortgages are evil.”

“Patience is a virtue.”

Each of these expressions has some level of truth–some more than others (and some are more ‘old addages’ than others), but the sentiments expressed within them have an air of “I-learned-this-the-hard-way-so-pay-attention.”  But the one that has always irritated me most is ‘Patience is a virtue.’  Admittedly, that’s because patience is a virtue that can only be learned by waiting… by trusting… by hoping…

Sarah and I have been waiting.

We’ve cried out to heaven for some sense of ‘what’s next?’ and the answer seems to have been, ‘Wait for it.’

Sunday will be my last day as pastor at Carlisle Wesleyan.  And after that?  We dunno.  We’re waiting.

I wish patience was a gift given at the beginning of life.  But my guess is: it’s a virtue earned throughout life.

Great.

Welcome!

June 6, 2009 — Leave a comment

Welcome to the very first post at jxgomez.com–check back often for my thoughts on life, God, ministry, and to keep track of the interesting ‘next steps’ my wife and I may be taking.  The posts preceeding this one are all from jxgomez.wordpress.com, which served very briefly as my pastoral blog for Carlisle Wesleyan Church in Carlisle, PA.